Back in the Saddle AGAIN.

So as you can tell, someone (NOT ME lol) hasn't been writing on her blog.
CURSE YOU. But here I sit, on the eve of a pretty big day, wanting to share with you, a little bit of what's been going on.

So since my last post, a TON has happened. The biggest thing though, is being UNEMPLOYED. Yeah, let me tell you how much that sucks. It's probably been the hardest 5 months ever.

But here I am, sitting on my couch staring at the clock. I have 10 hours until I have to be at orientation for my new job. Yep, you heard that right, NEW JOB. YAY. I doubt that I will be sleeping at all tonight. First of all I don't sleep much anyway, but when I am nervous or excited, sleep is almost nonexistent.

So since I have been jobless for so long, it got me thinking about my weight again. (Not again, I actually think about it quite often. Every time I see myself in the mirror, I die a little inside lol) I was thinking about if I had dedicated myself right when I was laid off, I would totally be at my goal weight, or close to it. IDIOT. So, I decided that once I get on a schedule with work, (I work right by the gym) and all that stuff, I will start with a diet and exercise regimen.
AND ACTUALLY STICK WITH IT THIS TIME....

And I know I have stated this numerous times, but this time, I AM NOT GIVING UP. I will have a job that will support my healthy eating, possibly a membership to Weight Watchers. (Haha, after seeing Jennifer Hudson, I get really jealous.) But I've been thinking, I am 24 now, and I am not getting any younger. I want to start a family, and the next step for me is to lose weight and see if that will help. If not, we will take another course of action. But I am ready to take this step, stick to it, and continue living a healthy lifestyle and STICKING TO IT.

Thanks to PINTEREST (lol) I have been getting really inspired. I look at the fitness section and see all these girls' blogs that have been pinned on there, and all their successes. I think, "Look at them! How amazing! I can totally do that!" OR, "Dang, look at that outfit. How cute would that be if I was skinny and could actually wear that?" I have a ton of outfits "pinned" so when the day comes that I am at or near my goal weight, I can go on a shopping spree! So now that I am in a quite inspiring mood, I am going to take it and run. Literally. I plan on doing a 5k with the Hubbs and our cousins. I just figure that when I was younger, I didn't have a problem staying skinny as long as I was involved in sports, and staying active. I really dislike working out, but it's only because I am SO out of shape. Being in shape actually helps that ya know. Working out can actually be enjoyable, if you don't feel like you are going to die if you run more than 5 yards haha.

So tomorrow when I get off work, I am going straight to the gym and get my work out on. I'm also going to weigh myself of a reliable scale and take my measurements. I feel a little embarrassed putting it on here, but I feel that I will achieve the best results if I am held accountable for everything. I also want to post some pictures. This actually makes me want to vomit, haha. There is nothing like showing your big old fat mug on the internet right? But like I said, I want to be able to see my progress and document everything that I do, so that when I get to my goal, I can look back at all that I have accomplished, and maybe inspire someone to take the journey.

But it looks like I should be hitting the sack. I need to at least try and get some sleep before my big day!

WISH ME LUCK

I am going to do this. And I'm not even kidding.

Last vacation of the year! TEAR!

Yesterday we got back from our last camping trip of the year! SAD!

Hubbs and I are big campers and go a ton throughout the summer! 

His family owns property up in Lava Hot Springs {on a mountain-top}

It's about 10 miles from Lava. This was the first year we went camping since we sold our trailer, and let me just tell you, going from a trailer, to sleeping in a tent is LAME! 

I HATE air-mattresses! I have never slept so bad in my entire life haha. 

But It was worth it, we had a blast. 

As far as vacation dieting....

I didn't eat horrible, but didn't eat great.

I had a TON of pop though...shame on me. 

Its really hard to eat well when you are camping. 

But we did quite a bit of walking. 

So exercising wasn't a total failure. 

Tomorrow when I go to the gym, i'm going to get my accurate measurements, weight, BMI, and Body Fat Percentage. Just so I know the scale there is right, 

and I can have an accurate starting point. I'm going to stick to straight cardio for my workouts for a few weeks, just so I can get more "in-shape" so I don't kill myself. 

As for today, I am super busy. 

I should have went to the gym this morning. 

But I woke up late. 

I need to get on a schedule, so when I have days like this, 

I will have already done my workout!

Awakened from the dead!

Hello everyone!! Yes I am still alive!

I decided to take a break from blogging for a while. 

Things were just getting too stressful, 

and I couldn't seem to find the time to write. 

BUT NOT ANYMORE!! 

FEAR NO MORE BLOGGER FRIENDS! 

THIS FED UP FAT GIRL IS BACK!! 

Back and ready to take this thing called weight loss, and 

KILL IT! 

Let me update everyone on what's been going on! I still haven't been able to lose the weight I want, so I am going to start writing here again,

and hopefully doing some Vlogs. 

{I still need to set up my webcam and all that jazz, 

so for now we will just shoot for blog posts! 

Gotta start small right!! ha!} 

After the latest season of The Biggest Loser, 

I became really inspired to reach out and ask for help from 

the people off the show. By twitter and facebook, I contacted 

a few of them and asked for some suggestions and tips 

for someone who is wanting to lose around 100lbs. 

They were generous and totally answered me! 

THEN

I entered a contest on Facebook via Biggest Loser Contestant 

and fellow Utahn, the beautiful Sarah Nitta!

remember her??

{isn't she fabulous!? She lost over 100 pounds!}

We had to tell our story of why we gained weight 

and why we want to lose weight, and I was picked {along with 3 others!}

To get a VIP pass to The Biggest Loser Casting Call in SLC!!

I decided right then and there that whether or not 

I got on The Biggest Loser, I needed to take 

a stand and change my life once and for all!

I'm sick of being stuck this way!

I'm going to do it!

 cuz baby, I'm a firework...lol 

 that song just came on!

When I didn't get the call {man I wanted that so bad}

I cried. I was at the drive-in crying while watching 

rise of the planet of the apes lol. But Hubbs whispered to me 

"You don't need the show to change your life, you can do it!"

As pissed as I was when he told me that, He is right. 

As bad as I wanted to be on the show, 

I can STILL do it at home. 

AND...

WHEN

I do it, I will have done it myself!

Although I didn't get on Biggest Loser, I feel like I learned a lot.

Just filling out that application helped me come to terms with 

my weight, and that it's going to take hard work

to get to my healthy weight.

I joined this group called Commitment Team on Facebook, 

that Sarah set up to help get people to commit to something, 

and be held accountable for it.

It's amazing the amount of inspiration that comes from this group.

I love being a part of it. 

Just last week, Hubbs and I made a commitment to not eat out for lunch, 

and make healthier choices. And just in 6 days, I lost 5 POUNDS!

I LOVE IT!

So starting tomorrow I am going to make sure to get my exercising in,

No fast food for lunch, and cut down on Pop. 

{I've got to start small in the pop area...I seriously am addicted!}

I will post more about my starting weight and all that tomorrow!

Have a great day everyone!!

Eh...

Hey Friends

Sorry for the lack of posting on my part. 

I've been really down lately. 

Some things have happened that just have me not acting myself.

I found out my sister-in-law is pregnant.

Which is really exciting for her!

But As all of you know I have had a really rough 

time keeping any kind of bun in my oven. 

It's a really exciting thing for her, and when my other SIL

got pregnant, I was a little upset too.

But I love my niece more than words can even explain.

Just look how cute she is..

But this time is different.

My last miscarriage was in August

and its hard to swallow everything that is going on.

It's hard to think that if everything would have went well,

I would be pregnant right now too. 

Its just JEALOUSY.

I'm trying look on the bright side of things.

I am going to be starting school soon, 

and getting a jump start on my career.

So being pregnant right now just isn't for me. 

But Congrats to my sister Brittney! 

ON TO THE WEIGHT

I said at the beginning of my journey that I am going to 

be doing a diet similar to HCG but with no HCG.

On HCG you have to take a break from your 

LCD. {low calorie diet}

So for the past 2 weeks I have been taking a break. 

The purpose of the break is to ensure that you can maintain

the weight loss within 2-3 pounds. 

So I am happy to say that I have done just that. 

I have been fluxuating between 215-218.

Starting monday, I am going to be back on my LCD

and eating healthy! So there will be better weigh-ins and a lot more results!!

So stay tuned!

ALSO, I am in the process of dumping both my computers.

So let's hope I can get this done ASAP :)

Weight Myself Wednesday!!

Today is 

 

Remember when I started I was 

231.6.

Last time I weighed myself I weighed in at 

215

{16.6 pound loss so far}

Today I weighed myself and it said

.......................................

215...

I am so irritated. :(

I have been beyond stressed lately

so hopefully I can blame it on that. 

I even contemplated not even posting today.

But I know that I owe it to my followers.

{all 30 of you :)}

{it means a lot, really, that people care about what I am trying to do}

I owe it to you to let you know that I am REAL.

I am a real life person.

A person who struggles.

A person who cheats and has 10 M&Ms.

A person who slacked and had 1

I REPEAT...ONE

boneless buffalo wing.

But I know in my heart that I don't want to give up.

{Even though my brain tells me sometimes that I am just kidding myself}

Just know that I AM real.

I do struggle.

And losing weight isn't easy.

It took me 3 years to do this to myself.

So I am not going to transform over night. 

I *promise* to do better this week.

Not only for you guys,

but for me too.

Weigh Myself Wednesdays!!

Today is 

Okay remember when I started this thing?
I weighed in at a whopping

231.6 pounds

This morning when I weighed myself

I saw.....

wait for it....


wait....for....it....

215!

That is a loss of 4 pounds.
{not SUPER happy about this number}

But a loss is a loss.

I picked up two 2lb weights and it made me feel better.

I am down a total of
16.6 pounds!

This past weekend I really really struggled, 
and I cheated a few times.
{not with usual cheat food like french fries, and burgers}

We're talking like Pringles people...

....PRINGLES....

No Pringles while on diets!

On another note.
I am sick today.
What is up with that? Really?
I was sick LAST week.
I'm not in the mood for anything today.
 I just want to SLEEP!!

As far as a recipe goes, 

I will share what I had for dinner last night. 

 it's called...
Um...DELICIOUS CHICKEN TACOS!

Not the most exciting thing, but it was SO good.

We put all kinds of awesome seasonings on
boneless skinless chicken breasts

{Our favorites are}

Garlic Salt
Lemon & Herb
Season All

Mustard Powder

And some Awesome Greek stuff we have.
{don't know the name}

After your the chicken is coated put in oven!

After chicken is cooked, 

take out and shred.

Hubbs and I used corn tortillas because they are significantly healthier.

Heat the tortillas by getting a damp
paper towel and wrapping the tortillas in it.

Heat in microwave for 30 seconds, and BAM. PERFECT!

Tyler put all sorts of healthy crap in it, like peppers and tomatoes 
{I hate those lol. I am plain Jane} and you can to!
Anything healthy go ahead and load it up. 

I can't have much carbs, if any at all.
So I just made one taco, and had a few chicken pieces on the side. 

On mine, I put the chicken, and a Tsp of cheese.
{not really allowed on my diet, but tacos with no cheese are NO BUENO!}

Usually I would put ranch on it because I could literally DRINK ranch.
Who else loves LOVED ranch that much?
My Hubbs thinks I have a serious problem. Lol

But since I can't have anything like ranch. 

I've been using balsamic vinegar! It is SO good.

This particular dinner tasted like Javier's Enchiladas! 

I have NO idea WHY, but It was DELISH!

PS. Hubbs is down 12 pounds!!

GGGGGOOOOOOOOOO HUBBS!! ♥

Its....WEIGH MYSELF WEDNESDAY!!!

GOOD MORNING!!

Today is another......

When I started my diet LIFE STYLE CHANGE 
I weighed in at 231.6 
{Excuse me while I puke...}

This morning…

Drum roll please

……………………….

219.0

That is a 12.6 pound loss!!!

I can’t believe I am actually doing it.

Usually by now, I would have given up.

But I am so determined.

ALSO, the Hubbs is doing great as well!

{he’s not really looking to lose 
a certain amount of weight he just
wants his high school football bod back}

Now I need to take a second to talk about Hubbs.

Oh how I am grateful for him. 
Before I started this whole thing, I told him, 

“Last time, this diet, weight loss thing didn’t work because we had too much junk in the house, and I would watch you eat potato chips, 
drink Pepsi so I just gave up." 

I figured, if he didn’t care about me getting to my goal then  
why the hell am I even trying? 

So we had a long talk before the New Year so that we were on the same page. Now when I look in our fridge I think, 
“What in the…? Who are you people and what have you done with Tyler and Jaimie?” 

But I can’t be happier about it! 
We have fruits, salads, NO 24 packs of soda, unthawing chicken? 
And let me just tell you, yesterday, when we were shopping, 
Hubbs wanted to replace regular milk with soy milk! 

WE HAVE SOY MILK IN OUR FRIDGE!! 

We are doing it people. 
And I am so grateful that I am not going at it alone.
I am so happy for both of us. 

I love my Hubbs and I am really thankful 
that he is helping me so much. 

So we’re standing in the kitchen the other day when I was 
having a rough time, all I could do was cry.
 All I wanted was a #1 w/cheese, 
plain, with a biggie Dr. Pepper.

   Why does this have to be such a struggle for me? 
WHY AM I SO ADDICTED TO THE 
FOODS THAT ARE SO BAD FOR ME? 
Why can’t I just SUCK IT UP and get on with it?

Hubbs wipes my tears away,
gives me the biggest bear hug, 
and tells me....
“You can do it, I know you can. 
We can do it together. I am here for you.” 

My heart melted. 

Even though sometimes he doesn’t know, 
he motivates me, every…single…day.

Okay okay, I’m done with the mushy stuff. 

Lol.

I want to share with you a DELICIOUS recipe that 
I always eat on my diet LIFE STYLE CHANGE.
Thanks to my friend Chazney!

Do you LOVE chicken nuggets? 
Because I sure do! 
Here is a healthy alternative!

Pre-heat Oven to 400

Cube boneless chicken breast to

desired size and set aside.

Take saltine crackers and

crush in Ziploc bag.

{I use 4. That is my allowed amount

 and covers my allowed amount of chicken!}

Add desired DRIED seasonings

{I use, garlic salt, season all, and

mustard powder}

Add Chicken to bag and shake like it’s nobody’s business. 

When the chicken is covered, put on a baking sheet. 

Pop into oven until cooked.  
{my oven is from the 19 century and cooks really fast, so I can’t ever tell people how long to cook things in the oven because my oven is on roids}

{Also, this could be used for whole chicken breasts, or even pork chops!}

When they are finished, try it. 
You will LOVE THEM!! 
Serve with vegetables! 
I think they would be perfect for a Super Bowl treat! 
Or if your little one likes chicken nuggets,
give them the healthier alternative!

I hope you like this recipe, 
because I use it ALL THE TIME!!

back from the dead

Hello blog world.

Sorry I have been AWAL for the last week. I have been having a really hard time on my diet and on top of that I got sick this weekend and it was NO BUENO! I haven’t been THAT sick in a really long time. 

I am just writing one intro post right now for both of my blogs because I am on a short break at work. Now, if I had and IPHONE, I could do it from there…lol. But since I don’t, this will have to do till later tonight.

{KEEP WISHING}

Fed Up Fat Girl NEWS: 

Tomorrow is Weight Myself Wednesday and I am excited!! I made sure that when I was sick I didn’t lose any weight {even though, I SWEAR I dropped like 10 pounds from the amount of puking that was going on} 

I’m also going to be posting what I am eating {for reals this time} The reason I didn’t do that, is because I was eating the exact same thing over and over again, and It really wasn’t worth putting on there, BUT since then I have done some research and found some really awesome recipes, only a few though. But I am excited to share them with you!! :)

Tomorrow will be a better post I promise!

WEIGH MYSELF WEDNESDAY!!

Well Folks, It's here!!

When I started my weight loss journey for the second time,

I weighed in at 231.6 Pounds.

{SICK I KNOW} Lol..

BUT...

This morning I woke up and weighed myself!!

Are you ready

{drum roll please}

................................................

227.2

That is 4.4 pounds!!

COOL!

Only 85.6lbs to go!!

ONLY...

Today I'm not feeling all that great. My nose is super stuffy. 

Boo for being sick AND dieting!

Diet day #4

So today was day #4 of my long and hard journey to a healthier lifestyle. 

Since I am really tired, and I can hear my bed calling my name I am going to make this post short.

Wait...can you here it??.......I can...lol

Today consisted of a crap-ton of water consumption. {way more than I am used to by-the-way, Sometimes I would go DAYS without drinking water...pathetic right? I know}

Right as I woke up, I drank a giant glass of water. 

For breakfast: I had 1/2 cup of dried apricots, & a lovely bottle of water. 

Lunch: 3.5oz of chicken grilled with lemon juice & garlic salt, a handful of green bean with a little salt and a bottle of water.

Snack when I got home: 4 Saltine Crackers. {I'm staying away from carbs as much as I can}

Dinner: 3.5oz of  Chicken, green beans and some water!

BORING DAY OF EATING

But really it didn't bother me!!

Tomorrow is the day I weigh in!! Wish me luck!!

Day #3

Hey Friends!!

Here we are Day #3 of my DIET lifestyle change!

I feel great! I’m pumped to be doing this and I am really excited to get to my goal. Hard work is ahead of me and I am so stoked! It’s been a crazy new year and I haven’t been home much to be able to sit down and write on here. But now that things are settled down, you will be hearing from me just about every day!

Since I haven’t been at home, I haven’t been able to take a before picture. {And NO I am not putting it on here lol} I will once I reach my goal of 90 pounds down! I’m giving myself till June to do it. That would be 3.75 pounds a week. I CAN DO IT! I got around to listening to a CD that my dietician gave to me. WOW, that is all I can say. No wonder why I have gained weight like crazy! I’m going to try and put it up here for you guys to be able to download. There is LOADS of useful information on it.

Hubbs is starting his diet today too. 

It’s a good thing he is doing this with me. {Not following my regimen but one that we have come up for him specifically} I really needed his support, and I couldn’t be happier that we are both making this lifestyle change together.

I’m really breaking the rules today and not eating anything for lunch though, because I didn’t get a chance to pre-make my meals for up until Wednesday. 

I know I know bad Jaimie. 

But tonight we are going shopping for our healthy selves and the rest of the week will be cake! 

{Oh and just to let you know, I tried a grapefruit. YES. That is a big deal}

Once I get My meals planned and all that jazz, I was thinking of taking a picture of everything I eat and posting them in their chronological order each day. What do you think about that? 

Oh and WEIGHT MYSELF WEDNESDAY starts this Wednesday!! 

I’m really excited to see what the scale looks like! 

Any loss is a loss right?

I will check back in tomorrow night with what I’ve eaten for the day and my thoughts and all that!

Over & Out!

{That just reminded me of In & Out Burger…man what I would do for a big juicy burger right now…lol. 

NOTHING TASTES AS GOOD AS SKINNY FEELS!}

T-Minus 4 days!!

Hello!! It’s been a while huh? Lol.

Well Just to let you know, I AM BACK! I am back and I’m not going ANYWHERE! I am just 4 days shy of the New Year, which means DIET TIME! And boy, am I ready for it! {As odd as that sounds} 

These holidays have been super hard for me. I originally wanted to be down about 30 pounds right now from my October attempt at my new diet, but I just couldn’t handle it. 

Dieting over the holidays is pretty much a lost cause. But now that the holidays are over, I am more than ready. Usually I am one who takes my camera EVERYWHERE! To get random pictures with the Hubbs, friends, siblings whoever, WHEREVER! But now that I have gained all this weight,  

I HATE PICTURES! 

I find any way to get out of getting my picture taken. And over the holidays, EVERYONE takes pictures. Everywhere you go there are camera flashes! I’m done diving and dodging out of the way!  

This fed up fat girl is determined! 

I also have 2 weddings to get skinny for this summer!!!

To be completely honest, I haven’t weighed myself since my last weigh in. But the last time I started my diet, I was aiming at a 90 pound loss! {This is where I say “TOLD YA SO” to all the people that tell me that I am not fat. Me succeeding in a 90 pound weight loss wouldn’t put me in an “all skin and bones” contest. I still would have some work to be at my “DREAM BODY” C’mon people, if I have to lose 90 pounds to get to a healthy weight, I DEFINITELY have issues!! So this is me saying “TOLD YA SO!!}

I can’t wait to be skinny…lol, really. 

I have so many things I want to do. Things I want to buy, things I want to wear, and places I want to go! I have a ton of cute clothes that I have saved for the day that I could fit into them again. They are up in my closet. Sometimes I look at them for inspiration. Lol...I’m a geek!

My motto is going to be  

“Nothing tastes as good as skinny feels” 

Because you know its true!

I’m also excited to say that the Hubbs is going to accompany me in a weight loss journey of his own! He only wants to slim down a little and build muscle, which is CAKE compared to what I’m about to attempt!! Well not attempt, but ACCOMPLISH! 
We are going to take before pictures and weekly pictures! {Not sure about Hubbs, but I am.} ALSO I am weighing myself every Wednesday! 
I’m going to start a new thing called
WEIGH MYSELF WEDNESDAY! 
So check back on Wednesdays to see my progress! 
I am going to keep a log daily as well. 
Consisting of what I ate, and how I’m feeling!

I’m really nervous, but I am SO ready. 
I just hope that I can stick with it!

REMEMBER... 

“Nothing tastes as good as SKINNY feels!” 
I’ve got to get that branded in my brain.

I am READY!

WISH ME LUCK!!

FAILED...

Well, I am embarrassed to say that I am going to be putting off my diet till January. I was on the diet for 4 days and lost 3.5 pounds. BUT, I am NOT mentally and physically prepared to be on a diet that is so strict, especially around the holidays. But I will say that I will eat healthy and exercise when I get the chance. I do feel like a failure though, but all I can say is nobody felt what I felt while I was on this diet. After I got sick this morning, which I believe is from the diet, and my emotions, and just not being ready at all, I have decided that I am not GIVING UP on the diet, just simply postponing it till the new year. I have a bunch of reading to do to prepare myself for when the time comes, so come January, I am going to KILL IT. & I will have no holidays to get in my way, except Valentines Day, BUT I will be on a break. The Diet is kind of like the HCG Diet, but with more calories, and no HCG drops. So the schedule is 45 days on 2 weeks off. So I hope that all of my fans aren't disappointed in me. I just feel like I am not MENTALLY ready for a diet like that. But that doesn't mean I am going to eat like total SHIZ till January. Simply smaller portions, no fast food, and no pop.

The first day of the rest of my life.

Hello friends. Its been a little while since I have wrote in this blog, and I have been meaning to write in it for the past few days but we haven’t been home much. But I am writing today to tell you something exciting! And no I am not pregnant. I have been talking to a nutritionist for the past 2-3 weeks and have been attending seminars on weight loss, and I am ready. Today is the last day of my old life, and Tomorrow is the first day of my new and healthy life. That’s right, I am dieting again. But this time I WILL stick with it and get to my goal weight. I have a lot of weight to lose, and I am on a one way track to achieving my goal, and NOBODY is going to stop me. I have realized my strengths and weaknesses when it comes to dieting, and after a lot of reading and mentally preparing, I am doing it. Now I just need some help from everyone else to keep me motivated. I’m starting out with a 1500 calorie diet and exercise whenever I can, and yes cleaning counts lol.
I have put everything behind me, including my failed attempts in losing weight, miscarriages, and negative people. So I am going to enjoy my last day of nasty eating, because from tomorrow till I reach my goal, I am not going to let anything stop me.
I am debating on weighing myself and posting or not, I will probably start doing that when I see some results, so I don’t feel like a freaking idiot. Lol. I have decided that I need to lose weight for a number of reasons, not just because of my health, and my urge to become a mom.
I have become someone that I don’t like. If anyone knows me personally, knows that I absolutely LOVE softball. I have played softball for forever, and now I am quitting my co-ed team because I am embarrassed. I SUCK NOW! Not only do I suck, I can’t run fast anymore, I can’t hit worth of crap, I get tired just running to my position, which is third…a whopping 20 feet away.
I have become clumsy…Like I fall all the time. I am coordinated, and coordinated people don’t do that. But I think my weight throws me off.
I don’t like to go anywhere because of the way I look, nope, no movies, no dates with my husband, no sledding, no picnics, no walks with Titan, no swimming (definitely no swimming).
I am just sick of it. I mean I know that I have self confidence issues, but the only way for me to fix that, is to lose the weight and get in shape. So skinny Jaimie, here I come, I know you have a ton of cute clothes waiting for me when I get there. I look at them every day and beat myself up for letting myself go, but NOT ANYMORE!
Tomorrow I will make sure to blog and tell you how I am feeling on my first day of the rest of my life! :)
Fed up fat girl, signing out!

Back from the dead AGAIN!! :)

Hey everyone...I am indeed back from the dead. Lol. Forgive me for being gone for such a long time, but a lot of things have come up lately. The biggest thing I can’t really talk about, but it was a family crisis/emergency but as of right now everything with that looks great. If you are reading this, I know you can do it. I love you and I am so proud of what you have been accomplishing. On another note, a more sad and depressing note. Tyler and I had another miscarriage, and that is another reason why I haven’t been blogging. I didn’t really want to tell anyone, but I feel it is necessary. I am still really bummed about it, and sometimes get pretty depressed thinking about it. It seems like everyone is having babies right now, and I guess I wanted to be in the crowd of moms-to-be. My rationalized part of my brain keeps telling me that it will indeed happen, but right now is just not my time, while the other part is screaming WHY?! Watching the news, and watching all these horrible mothers, killing and hurting their children makes me want to vomit. All I want is to be a wonderful mom to my children, and every time my journey to motherhood gets cut short. But people continue to have kids, and either neglect them, hurt or even kill them. It’s ridiculous. But I MUST think rationally to keep me sane. So we will just stick with the “My time will come” shpeal. Ok? Ok.
But on a brighter note, something awesome may be in the works, but I am not going to get my hopes super high, even though its hard not to. My friend has had a wonderful opportunity, and has invited me along for the designing ride. Now let’s just hope it all works out. I just can’t help but thinking that this may be my break. So I can fix up my house, get a more reliable car, (preferably a RED Kia Soul. Those are just so cute to me) Pay a couple things off, get my boutique actually going, (You can’t acquire funds without funds spent, and I have NONE lol) finally get the salon in my house, and take my nail class. So keep me in your prayers that all of this goes well.
I have also been doing a lot of thinking of what I want to be when I grow up. I am going to be 23 years old this year and I find it pathetic that I am doing nothing to pursue my career, so in the spring I am going to start going to school, and I can not be more frightened. I feel like a kid going to kindergarten. “What if nobody likes me?” starts popping in my head. I AM SCARED. I want to be a teacher, so I am going to be taking all those classes along with psychology so later on when I finish my 6-8 years of college I can work to help out kids and families. BUT I also want to try Medical Coding, which is only an associate’s degree, so Medical Terminology, Medical Anatomy & Physiology and/or Bio-Med here I come. I am like being pulled in 2 separate directions though, so I am going to have some rough decisions ahead of me. I’ve always thought it would be so much fun to be a teacher and a coach softball or basketball or BOTH! How fun would that be. AND have summers off! How awesome! Wish me luck with that too, because I am positive I will need it.
Here is another thing I am going to do ASAP. I am going to make another blog page, so I will have 3. I know what you are thinking, “You don’t even write in your ONE blog, why would you have three?” I want to separate them into categories. My LIFE blog, My WEIGHT LOSS blog AKA Diaries of a Fed Up Fat Girl, and craft blog, I haven’t come up with a name yet. But I have been doing SO MANY craft things that I need to. Starting a blog has totally brought out the crafter in me, and now I have so many things in my garage that I have gotten/bought that are going to become AWESOME artsy stuff. Tyler calls me a hoarder lol. But I can’t resist things that are $1 that if were painted a fun crazy color, would be the CUTEST thing ever. So I think I am going to do it, and start a crafting blog. No if I can just think of a cute name.
Speaking of crafting...well and my Boutique...Everyone who is having baby boys, I am going to make you something for them. :) I just need to do a little sewing and they will be done. I just don't have a sewing machine at the moment. But I will get them done, because they are SUPER CUTE!!

I also can’t help but think of who is reading these. I only have like 5 followers lol. How pathetic haha… Oh Well..HEY GUYS!!! :)

Havent forgotten about you I promise!!

Hey everyone! Just to let you know I haven't forgotten about you I promise! There are a bunch of things going on right now, I will explain in a few days :) I will tell you what's going on, how California was, and post some pictures! Until then, I will be up in the mountains with my hubby and puppy! Talk to you soon!

"'ello..." "did you just say hello?" "No I said 'ello"

Wow, what a crazy month so far! I’m very excited to say that I have lost 2.5 pounds since I have started over!! YAY! Probably because I have been so sick :/

MY FIRST MELTING POT EXPERIENCE:
Tyler and I went to the melting pot with my sister, her husband, and my younger brother the other night, and I got sick there and started throwing up…NO FUN. Especially when you are eating somewhere THAT expensive. Good thing we had a gift card right? I didn’t even get to eat my favorite part, the chocolate. That may or may not have been a good thing hahah. All in all, I wasn’t too impressed. I mean it was good, but we do fondue around Christmas time and valentines day at my dads house, and we have a lot better menu. The thing I was the most disappointed with was the cheese. My favorite thing about fondue would probably be the cheddar cheese fondue. When I make it, it is the most delicious thing in the world lol. Consisting of sharp cheddar cheese, garlic, mustard powder, Worcestershire, onion salt, and milk. That my friends, is what you call nectar of the Gods lol. But the cheese at the melting pot had like 1 whole can of beer in it…it was disgusting. Even the Swiss cheese was sick, they put brandy in it, and I’m sure usually its good, but this time, wow, you could get wasted just by eating the cheese lol. But I ended up puking it all up so that sucked. But next time I want to have fondue dinner, I will remind myself to just do it at home, it’s a lot cheaper, and its more delicious.

I know I haven’t been posting what I have been eating and all that jazz, but really I haven’t been eating real healthy, just smaller portions. Which really doesn’t say much about how determined I am, but like I have said in my earlier posts, my life has been more than chaotic lately. Tuesday August, 10th Tyler, my brother Conner, and I are going to be driving to CALIFORNIA!! WOOT!

It’s my grandparent’s 50th wedding anniversary and they rented a beach house in Oceanside! Can I tell you how excited I am for this? I’ve got my nails and toes done, bought a new swimming suit and I am more than ready for a REAL vacation. OUT OF UTAH! I’m taking my awesome camera and I am going to take some AMAZING pictures!! I’m so excited!! The ocean is like 10 feet from the back of the house! I am going to sit my trash in a comfy chair and relax like nobody’s business! I finally got an ipod again and The Jukebox is back in business with almost 3000 songs, Armed with Inception, and Eclipse for the ride down! Oh and don’t forget about The Goonies, The Breakfast Club, Ferris Bueller, and Zombieland!!

I think my diet down there will be fairly easy really, we are just taking groceries and cooking with the family, which most of them are on diets I think(even though they don’t need to be), so there ya go! Healthy food all around! And exercising will be a breeze, swimming is a great form of exercise, and I will definitely be doing a lot of that! Swimming is so much! If I weren’t so dang self conscious I would be doing way more of it. On that thought, maybe I should just invest in a swimming pool for my back yard! I could do laps, get a nice tan, and I would be skinny in no time! Haha!

So that’s where I am for now!
I’m going to try and get a few blogs in while I am down there, but I’m not sure how that will go. Tonight we have to get everything packed and ready to go because we are leaving at about 3 tomorrow! I’m so excited!!

Busy Busy..

So the past couple days have been hectic like everything else. I have been so swamped at work, so I have had like no time to blog at all. So I'm going to go back to my old routine and blog at night from now on. Even if I have to blog from my phone or ipod.
I've been doing good and bad lately, kinda in spurts.

Today I slacked and had del taco O_o.

Not good.

Oh and a Dr. Pepper. O_o

It's been really hard. We've been really short on money lately so I don't have all the healthy stuff that I can take for lunch, and to add to that, we don't have a fridge at work any more because the old one died. So even if I had stuff to take, I have nowhere to put it. So if anyone is getting rid of a fridge or anything let me know and I can see if my work will buy it. It sucks. And another thing, my "pregnant mug" (the ones you get when you have a baby, the clear ones with a green lid and green writing.) Yeah I have one of those that I put my water in and ice and stuff, yeah when we were up camping, I had my slimfast in it and I totally forgot it somewhere and when I found it, it was DISGUSTING!! So I threw it away.

What I need to do is get a new mug or something so I can have convenient freezing cold water on hand. Lol.

Tomorrow I am going to take my delicious cottage cheese and crackers lunch. MMMmmmm!

Tuesday, August 10th we are going to SAN DIEGO! WoOt! My grandparents rented a beach house for their 50th wedding anniversary! We're staying till Saturday the 14th! I am beyond excited. BUT...it kinda sucks ya know, I want to be that girl that is comfortable in her swimming suit and not worry about what she looks like. But nope not me. I am so self conscious it's not even funny. But I'm going to do my best to have a good time because I know it's a one time thing. I'm just not excited for pictures..I mean, ever since I've become a fed up fat girl, and my friends take pictures with me and post them on facebook, I make sure that if they tag me, I remove it so nobody can see what I look like. Sad huh? But its really like that, and I'm ashamed of it but I really hate the way I look.

But anyway, I'm trying my best to make everyone proud and make sure that I achieve my goal, even though I have been slacking a lot lately. :)

Till my next post,
PEACE OUT!

-Fed-Up Fat Girl :)

I AM ALIVE!

Just to let everyone know, I am still alive.
I’m sorry that I have been away for such a long time, but everything has been quite hectic! I actually haven’t been doing very well at all along the lines of dieting and exercising. So I am going to start over again. But this time I will make sure that I am doing all that I can to keep everything updated and get going on my goal. With that said, I AM BACK!

I wrote a huge blog post today while I was on my lunch but somehow it got erased! I was so mad!! But here I am trying to remember everything that I wrote earlier. Since my last post I’m happy to say that I haven’t gained any weight, but not happy to say that I am the same weight.

Today I was naughty and I had 2 Dr. Peppers…I know I know, I am SLACKING!

But for lunch I had the most delicious thing. Lol. It’s really simple and probably should be used as more of a snack than a meal, but it’s delicious.

What it is:

1 container of cottage cheese
1 Ranch packet
1/4th cup of grated cheese
Seasoned Salt to taste

Then you eat with Ritz Crackers. YYUUMM!!!!

Anyway that’s what I had for lunch.
Cottage Cheese stuff, and 10 crackers!!

I’m not sure how healthy that is for you but I’m guessing that because it’s cottage cheese its okay, and the ranch packet doesn’t have any calories or carbs unless its cooked it said. So I guess I’ll take that!!!

I really appreciate all the kind words and everything that everyone that is following or reading this blog has said so far! It makes me feel good! Now It's my job to keep up the blogging, dieting, and exercising! I CAN DO THIS! (can't I)