Monday, October 11, 2010
FAILED...
Well, I am embarrassed to say that I am going to be putting off my diet till January. I was on the diet for 4 days and lost 3.5 pounds. BUT, I am NOT mentally and physically prepared to be on a diet that is so strict, especially around the holidays. But I will say that I will eat healthy and exercise when I get the chance. I do feel like a failure though, but all I can say is nobody felt what I felt while I was on this diet. After I got sick this morning, which I believe is from the diet, and my emotions, and just not being ready at all, I have decided that I am not GIVING UP on the diet, just simply postponing it till the new year. I have a bunch of reading to do to prepare myself for when the time comes, so come January, I am going to KILL IT. & I will have no holidays to get in my way, except Valentines Day, BUT I will be on a break. The Diet is kind of like the HCG Diet, but with more calories, and no HCG drops. So the schedule is 45 days on 2 weeks off. So I hope that all of my fans aren't disappointed in me. I just feel like I am not MENTALLY ready for a diet like that. But that doesn't mean I am going to eat like total SHIZ till January. Simply smaller portions, no fast food, and no pop. 
Thursday, October 7, 2010
The first day of the rest of my life.
Hello friends. Its been a little while since I have wrote in this blog, and I have been meaning to write in it for the past few days but we haven’t been home much. But I am writing today to tell you something exciting! And no I am not pregnant. I have been talking to a nutritionist for the past 2-3 weeks and have been attending seminars on weight loss, and I am ready. Today is the last day of my old life, and Tomorrow is the first day of my new and healthy life. That’s right, I am dieting again. But this time I WILL stick with it and get to my goal weight. I have a lot of weight to lose, and I am on a one way track to achieving my goal, and NOBODY is going to stop me. I have realized my strengths and weaknesses when it comes to dieting, and after a lot of reading and mentally preparing, I am doing it. Now I just need some help from everyone else to keep me motivated. I’m starting out with a 1500 calorie diet and exercise whenever I can, and yes cleaning counts lol.
I have put everything behind me, including my failed attempts in losing weight, miscarriages, and negative people. So I am going to enjoy my last day of nasty eating, because from tomorrow till I reach my goal, I am not going to let anything stop me.
I am debating on weighing myself and posting or not, I will probably start doing that when I see some results, so I don’t feel like a freaking idiot. Lol. I have decided that I need to lose weight for a number of reasons, not just because of my health, and my urge to become a mom.
I have become someone that I don’t like. If anyone knows me personally, knows that I absolutely LOVE softball. I have played softball for forever, and now I am quitting my co-ed team because I am embarrassed. I SUCK NOW! Not only do I suck, I can’t run fast anymore, I can’t hit worth of crap, I get tired just running to my position, which is third…a whopping 20 feet away.
I have become clumsy…Like I fall all the time. I am coordinated, and coordinated people don’t do that. But I think my weight throws me off.
I don’t like to go anywhere because of the way I look, nope, no movies, no dates with my husband, no sledding, no picnics, no walks with Titan, no swimming (definitely no swimming).
I am just sick of it. I mean I know that I have self confidence issues, but the only way for me to fix that, is to lose the weight and get in shape. So skinny Jaimie, here I come, I know you have a ton of cute clothes waiting for me when I get there. I look at them every day and beat myself up for letting myself go, but NOT ANYMORE!
Tomorrow I will make sure to blog and tell you how I am feeling on my first day of the rest of my life! :)
Fed up fat girl, signing out!
I have put everything behind me, including my failed attempts in losing weight, miscarriages, and negative people. So I am going to enjoy my last day of nasty eating, because from tomorrow till I reach my goal, I am not going to let anything stop me.
I am debating on weighing myself and posting or not, I will probably start doing that when I see some results, so I don’t feel like a freaking idiot. Lol. I have decided that I need to lose weight for a number of reasons, not just because of my health, and my urge to become a mom.
I have become someone that I don’t like. If anyone knows me personally, knows that I absolutely LOVE softball. I have played softball for forever, and now I am quitting my co-ed team because I am embarrassed. I SUCK NOW! Not only do I suck, I can’t run fast anymore, I can’t hit worth of crap, I get tired just running to my position, which is third…a whopping 20 feet away.
I have become clumsy…Like I fall all the time. I am coordinated, and coordinated people don’t do that. But I think my weight throws me off.
I don’t like to go anywhere because of the way I look, nope, no movies, no dates with my husband, no sledding, no picnics, no walks with Titan, no swimming (definitely no swimming).
I am just sick of it. I mean I know that I have self confidence issues, but the only way for me to fix that, is to lose the weight and get in shape. So skinny Jaimie, here I come, I know you have a ton of cute clothes waiting for me when I get there. I look at them every day and beat myself up for letting myself go, but NOT ANYMORE!
Tomorrow I will make sure to blog and tell you how I am feeling on my first day of the rest of my life! :)
Fed up fat girl, signing out!
Monday, September 27, 2010
Back from the dead AGAIN!! :)
Hey everyone...I am indeed back from the dead. Lol. Forgive me for being gone for such a long time, but a lot of things have come up lately. The biggest thing I can’t really talk about, but it was a family crisis/emergency but as of right now everything with that looks great. If you are reading this, I know you can do it. I love you and I am so proud of what you have been accomplishing. On another note, a more sad and depressing note. Tyler and I had another miscarriage, and that is another reason why I haven’t been blogging. I didn’t really want to tell anyone, but I feel it is necessary. I am still really bummed about it, and sometimes get pretty depressed thinking about it. It seems like everyone is having babies right now, and I guess I wanted to be in the crowd of moms-to-be. My rationalized part of my brain keeps telling me that it will indeed happen, but right now is just not my time, while the other part is screaming WHY?! Watching the news, and watching all these horrible mothers, killing and hurting their children makes me want to vomit. All I want is to be a wonderful mom to my children, and every time my journey to motherhood gets cut short. But people continue to have kids, and either neglect them, hurt or even kill them. It’s ridiculous. But I MUST think rationally to keep me sane. So we will just stick with the “My time will come” shpeal. Ok? Ok.
But on a brighter note, something awesome may be in the works, but I am not going to get my hopes super high, even though its hard not to. My friend has had a wonderful opportunity, and has invited me along for the designing ride. Now let’s just hope it all works out. I just can’t help but thinking that this may be my break. So I can fix up my house, get a more reliable car, (preferably a RED Kia Soul. Those are just so cute to me) Pay a couple things off, get my boutique actually going, (You can’t acquire funds without funds spent, and I have NONE lol) finally get the salon in my house, and take my nail class. So keep me in your prayers that all of this goes well.
I have also been doing a lot of thinking of what I want to be when I grow up. I am going to be 23 years old this year and I find it pathetic that I am doing nothing to pursue my career, so in the spring I am going to start going to school, and I can not be more frightened. I feel like a kid going to kindergarten. “What if nobody likes me?” starts popping in my head. I AM SCARED. I want to be a teacher, so I am going to be taking all those classes along with psychology so later on when I finish my 6-8 years of college I can work to help out kids and families. BUT I also want to try Medical Coding, which is only an associate’s degree, so Medical Terminology, Medical Anatomy & Physiology and/or Bio-Med here I come. I am like being pulled in 2 separate directions though, so I am going to have some rough decisions ahead of me. I’ve always thought it would be so much fun to be a teacher and a coach softball or basketball or BOTH! How fun would that be. AND have summers off! How awesome! Wish me luck with that too, because I am positive I will need it.
Here is another thing I am going to do ASAP. I am going to make another blog page, so I will have 3. I know what you are thinking, “You don’t even write in your ONE blog, why would you have three?” I want to separate them into categories. My LIFE blog, My WEIGHT LOSS blog AKA Diaries of a Fed Up Fat Girl, and craft blog, I haven’t come up with a name yet. But I have been doing SO MANY craft things that I need to. Starting a blog has totally brought out the crafter in me, and now I have so many things in my garage that I have gotten/bought that are going to become AWESOME artsy stuff. Tyler calls me a hoarder lol. But I can’t resist things that are $1 that if were painted a fun crazy color, would be the CUTEST thing ever. So I think I am going to do it, and start a crafting blog. No if I can just think of a cute name.
Speaking of crafting...well and my Boutique...Everyone who is having baby boys, I am going to make you something for them. :) I just need to do a little sewing and they will be done. I just don't have a sewing machine at the moment. But I will get them done, because they are SUPER CUTE!!
I also can’t help but think of who is reading these. I only have like 5 followers lol. How pathetic haha… Oh Well..HEY GUYS!!! :)
But on a brighter note, something awesome may be in the works, but I am not going to get my hopes super high, even though its hard not to. My friend has had a wonderful opportunity, and has invited me along for the designing ride. Now let’s just hope it all works out. I just can’t help but thinking that this may be my break. So I can fix up my house, get a more reliable car, (preferably a RED Kia Soul. Those are just so cute to me) Pay a couple things off, get my boutique actually going, (You can’t acquire funds without funds spent, and I have NONE lol) finally get the salon in my house, and take my nail class. So keep me in your prayers that all of this goes well.
I have also been doing a lot of thinking of what I want to be when I grow up. I am going to be 23 years old this year and I find it pathetic that I am doing nothing to pursue my career, so in the spring I am going to start going to school, and I can not be more frightened. I feel like a kid going to kindergarten. “What if nobody likes me?” starts popping in my head. I AM SCARED. I want to be a teacher, so I am going to be taking all those classes along with psychology so later on when I finish my 6-8 years of college I can work to help out kids and families. BUT I also want to try Medical Coding, which is only an associate’s degree, so Medical Terminology, Medical Anatomy & Physiology and/or Bio-Med here I come. I am like being pulled in 2 separate directions though, so I am going to have some rough decisions ahead of me. I’ve always thought it would be so much fun to be a teacher and a coach softball or basketball or BOTH! How fun would that be. AND have summers off! How awesome! Wish me luck with that too, because I am positive I will need it.
Here is another thing I am going to do ASAP. I am going to make another blog page, so I will have 3. I know what you are thinking, “You don’t even write in your ONE blog, why would you have three?” I want to separate them into categories. My LIFE blog, My WEIGHT LOSS blog AKA Diaries of a Fed Up Fat Girl, and craft blog, I haven’t come up with a name yet. But I have been doing SO MANY craft things that I need to. Starting a blog has totally brought out the crafter in me, and now I have so many things in my garage that I have gotten/bought that are going to become AWESOME artsy stuff. Tyler calls me a hoarder lol. But I can’t resist things that are $1 that if were painted a fun crazy color, would be the CUTEST thing ever. So I think I am going to do it, and start a crafting blog. No if I can just think of a cute name.
Speaking of crafting...well and my Boutique...Everyone who is having baby boys, I am going to make you something for them. :) I just need to do a little sewing and they will be done. I just don't have a sewing machine at the moment. But I will get them done, because they are SUPER CUTE!!
I also can’t help but think of who is reading these. I only have like 5 followers lol. How pathetic haha… Oh Well..HEY GUYS!!! :)
Friday, August 20, 2010
Havent forgotten about you I promise!!
Hey everyone! Just to let you know I haven't forgotten about you I promise! There are a bunch of things going on right now, I will explain in a few days :) I will tell you what's going on, how California was, and post some pictures! Until then, I will be up in the mountains with my hubby and puppy! Talk to you soon!
Monday, August 9, 2010
"'ello..." "did you just say hello?" "No I said 'ello"
Wow, what a crazy month so far! I’m very excited to say that I have lost 2.5 pounds since I have started over!! YAY! Probably because I have been so sick :/
MY FIRST MELTING POT EXPERIENCE:
Tyler and I went to the melting pot with my sister, her husband, and my younger brother the other night, and I got sick there and started throwing up…NO FUN. Especially when you are eating somewhere THAT expensive. Good thing we had a gift card right? I didn’t even get to eat my favorite part, the chocolate. That may or may not have been a good thing hahah. All in all, I wasn’t too impressed. I mean it was good, but we do fondue around Christmas time and valentines day at my dads house, and we have a lot better menu. The thing I was the most disappointed with was the cheese. My favorite thing about fondue would probably be the cheddar cheese fondue. When I make it, it is the most delicious thing in the world lol. Consisting of sharp cheddar cheese, garlic, mustard powder, Worcestershire, onion salt, and milk. That my friends, is what you call nectar of the Gods lol. But the cheese at the melting pot had like 1 whole can of beer in it…it was disgusting. Even the Swiss cheese was sick, they put brandy in it, and I’m sure usually its good, but this time, wow, you could get wasted just by eating the cheese lol. But I ended up puking it all up so that sucked. But next time I want to have fondue dinner, I will remind myself to just do it at home, it’s a lot cheaper, and its more delicious.
I know I haven’t been posting what I have been eating and all that jazz, but really I haven’t been eating real healthy, just smaller portions. Which really doesn’t say much about how determined I am, but like I have said in my earlier posts, my life has been more than chaotic lately. Tuesday August, 10th Tyler, my brother Conner, and I are going to be driving to CALIFORNIA!! WOOT!
It’s my grandparent’s 50th wedding anniversary and they rented a beach house in Oceanside! Can I tell you how excited I am for this? I’ve got my nails and toes done, bought a new swimming suit and I am more than ready for a REAL vacation. OUT OF UTAH! I’m taking my awesome camera and I am going to take some AMAZING pictures!! I’m so excited!! The ocean is like 10 feet from the back of the house! I am going to sit my trash in a comfy chair and relax like nobody’s business! I finally got an ipod again and The Jukebox is back in business with almost 3000 songs, Armed with Inception, and Eclipse for the ride down! Oh and don’t forget about The Goonies, The Breakfast Club, Ferris Bueller, and Zombieland!!
I think my diet down there will be fairly easy really, we are just taking groceries and cooking with the family, which most of them are on diets I think(even though they don’t need to be), so there ya go! Healthy food all around! And exercising will be a breeze, swimming is a great form of exercise, and I will definitely be doing a lot of that! Swimming is so much! If I weren’t so dang self conscious I would be doing way more of it. On that thought, maybe I should just invest in a swimming pool for my back yard! I could do laps, get a nice tan, and I would be skinny in no time! Haha!
So that’s where I am for now!
I’m going to try and get a few blogs in while I am down there, but I’m not sure how that will go. Tonight we have to get everything packed and ready to go because we are leaving at about 3 tomorrow! I’m so excited!!
MY FIRST MELTING POT EXPERIENCE:
Tyler and I went to the melting pot with my sister, her husband, and my younger brother the other night, and I got sick there and started throwing up…NO FUN. Especially when you are eating somewhere THAT expensive. Good thing we had a gift card right? I didn’t even get to eat my favorite part, the chocolate. That may or may not have been a good thing hahah. All in all, I wasn’t too impressed. I mean it was good, but we do fondue around Christmas time and valentines day at my dads house, and we have a lot better menu. The thing I was the most disappointed with was the cheese. My favorite thing about fondue would probably be the cheddar cheese fondue. When I make it, it is the most delicious thing in the world lol. Consisting of sharp cheddar cheese, garlic, mustard powder, Worcestershire, onion salt, and milk. That my friends, is what you call nectar of the Gods lol. But the cheese at the melting pot had like 1 whole can of beer in it…it was disgusting. Even the Swiss cheese was sick, they put brandy in it, and I’m sure usually its good, but this time, wow, you could get wasted just by eating the cheese lol. But I ended up puking it all up so that sucked. But next time I want to have fondue dinner, I will remind myself to just do it at home, it’s a lot cheaper, and its more delicious.
I know I haven’t been posting what I have been eating and all that jazz, but really I haven’t been eating real healthy, just smaller portions. Which really doesn’t say much about how determined I am, but like I have said in my earlier posts, my life has been more than chaotic lately. Tuesday August, 10th Tyler, my brother Conner, and I are going to be driving to CALIFORNIA!! WOOT!
It’s my grandparent’s 50th wedding anniversary and they rented a beach house in Oceanside! Can I tell you how excited I am for this? I’ve got my nails and toes done, bought a new swimming suit and I am more than ready for a REAL vacation. OUT OF UTAH! I’m taking my awesome camera and I am going to take some AMAZING pictures!! I’m so excited!! The ocean is like 10 feet from the back of the house! I am going to sit my trash in a comfy chair and relax like nobody’s business! I finally got an ipod again and The Jukebox is back in business with almost 3000 songs, Armed with Inception, and Eclipse for the ride down! Oh and don’t forget about The Goonies, The Breakfast Club, Ferris Bueller, and Zombieland!!
I think my diet down there will be fairly easy really, we are just taking groceries and cooking with the family, which most of them are on diets I think(even though they don’t need to be), so there ya go! Healthy food all around! And exercising will be a breeze, swimming is a great form of exercise, and I will definitely be doing a lot of that! Swimming is so much! If I weren’t so dang self conscious I would be doing way more of it. On that thought, maybe I should just invest in a swimming pool for my back yard! I could do laps, get a nice tan, and I would be skinny in no time! Haha!
So that’s where I am for now!
I’m going to try and get a few blogs in while I am down there, but I’m not sure how that will go. Tonight we have to get everything packed and ready to go because we are leaving at about 3 tomorrow! I’m so excited!!
Thursday, August 5, 2010
Busy Busy..
So the past couple days have been hectic like everything else. I have been so swamped at work, so I have had like no time to blog at all. So I'm going to go back to my old routine and blog at night from now on. Even if I have to blog from my phone or ipod.
I've been doing good and bad lately, kinda in spurts.
Today I slacked and had del taco O_o.
Not good.
Oh and a Dr. Pepper. O_o
It's been really hard. We've been really short on money lately so I don't have all the healthy stuff that I can take for lunch, and to add to that, we don't have a fridge at work any more because the old one died. So even if I had stuff to take, I have nowhere to put it. So if anyone is getting rid of a fridge or anything let me know and I can see if my work will buy it. It sucks. And another thing, my "pregnant mug" (the ones you get when you have a baby, the clear ones with a green lid and green writing.) Yeah I have one of those that I put my water in and ice and stuff, yeah when we were up camping, I had my slimfast in it and I totally forgot it somewhere and when I found it, it was DISGUSTING!! So I threw it away.
What I need to do is get a new mug or something so I can have convenient freezing cold water on hand. Lol.
Tomorrow I am going to take my delicious cottage cheese and crackers lunch. MMMmmmm!
Tuesday, August 10th we are going to SAN DIEGO! WoOt! My grandparents rented a beach house for their 50th wedding anniversary! We're staying till Saturday the 14th! I am beyond excited. BUT...it kinda sucks ya know, I want to be that girl that is comfortable in her swimming suit and not worry about what she looks like. But nope not me. I am so self conscious it's not even funny. But I'm going to do my best to have a good time because I know it's a one time thing. I'm just not excited for pictures..I mean, ever since I've become a fed up fat girl, and my friends take pictures with me and post them on facebook, I make sure that if they tag me, I remove it so nobody can see what I look like. Sad huh? But its really like that, and I'm ashamed of it but I really hate the way I look.
But anyway, I'm trying my best to make everyone proud and make sure that I achieve my goal, even though I have been slacking a lot lately. :)
Till my next post,
PEACE OUT!
-Fed-Up Fat Girl :)
I've been doing good and bad lately, kinda in spurts.
Today I slacked and had del taco O_o.
Not good.
Oh and a Dr. Pepper. O_o
It's been really hard. We've been really short on money lately so I don't have all the healthy stuff that I can take for lunch, and to add to that, we don't have a fridge at work any more because the old one died. So even if I had stuff to take, I have nowhere to put it. So if anyone is getting rid of a fridge or anything let me know and I can see if my work will buy it. It sucks. And another thing, my "pregnant mug" (the ones you get when you have a baby, the clear ones with a green lid and green writing.) Yeah I have one of those that I put my water in and ice and stuff, yeah when we were up camping, I had my slimfast in it and I totally forgot it somewhere and when I found it, it was DISGUSTING!! So I threw it away.
What I need to do is get a new mug or something so I can have convenient freezing cold water on hand. Lol.
Tomorrow I am going to take my delicious cottage cheese and crackers lunch. MMMmmmm!
Tuesday, August 10th we are going to SAN DIEGO! WoOt! My grandparents rented a beach house for their 50th wedding anniversary! We're staying till Saturday the 14th! I am beyond excited. BUT...it kinda sucks ya know, I want to be that girl that is comfortable in her swimming suit and not worry about what she looks like. But nope not me. I am so self conscious it's not even funny. But I'm going to do my best to have a good time because I know it's a one time thing. I'm just not excited for pictures..I mean, ever since I've become a fed up fat girl, and my friends take pictures with me and post them on facebook, I make sure that if they tag me, I remove it so nobody can see what I look like. Sad huh? But its really like that, and I'm ashamed of it but I really hate the way I look.
But anyway, I'm trying my best to make everyone proud and make sure that I achieve my goal, even though I have been slacking a lot lately. :)
Till my next post,
PEACE OUT!
-Fed-Up Fat Girl :)
Tuesday, August 3, 2010
I AM ALIVE!
Just to let everyone know, I am still alive.
I’m sorry that I have been away for such a long time, but everything has been quite hectic! I actually haven’t been doing very well at all along the lines of dieting and exercising. So I am going to start over again. But this time I will make sure that I am doing all that I can to keep everything updated and get going on my goal. With that said, I AM BACK!
I wrote a huge blog post today while I was on my lunch but somehow it got erased! I was so mad!! But here I am trying to remember everything that I wrote earlier. Since my last post I’m happy to say that I haven’t gained any weight, but not happy to say that I am the same weight.
Today I was naughty and I had 2 Dr. Peppers…I know I know, I am SLACKING!
But for lunch I had the most delicious thing. Lol. It’s really simple and probably should be used as more of a snack than a meal, but it’s delicious.
What it is:
1 container of cottage cheese
1 Ranch packet
1/4th cup of grated cheese
Seasoned Salt to taste
Then you eat with Ritz Crackers. YYUUMM!!!!
Anyway that’s what I had for lunch.
Cottage Cheese stuff, and 10 crackers!!
I’m not sure how healthy that is for you but I’m guessing that because it’s cottage cheese its okay, and the ranch packet doesn’t have any calories or carbs unless its cooked it said. So I guess I’ll take that!!!
I really appreciate all the kind words and everything that everyone that is following or reading this blog has said so far! It makes me feel good! Now It's my job to keep up the blogging, dieting, and exercising! I CAN DO THIS! (can't I)
I’m sorry that I have been away for such a long time, but everything has been quite hectic! I actually haven’t been doing very well at all along the lines of dieting and exercising. So I am going to start over again. But this time I will make sure that I am doing all that I can to keep everything updated and get going on my goal. With that said, I AM BACK!
I wrote a huge blog post today while I was on my lunch but somehow it got erased! I was so mad!! But here I am trying to remember everything that I wrote earlier. Since my last post I’m happy to say that I haven’t gained any weight, but not happy to say that I am the same weight.
Today I was naughty and I had 2 Dr. Peppers…I know I know, I am SLACKING!
But for lunch I had the most delicious thing. Lol. It’s really simple and probably should be used as more of a snack than a meal, but it’s delicious.
What it is:
1 container of cottage cheese
1 Ranch packet
1/4th cup of grated cheese
Seasoned Salt to taste
Then you eat with Ritz Crackers. YYUUMM!!!!
Anyway that’s what I had for lunch.
Cottage Cheese stuff, and 10 crackers!!
I’m not sure how healthy that is for you but I’m guessing that because it’s cottage cheese its okay, and the ranch packet doesn’t have any calories or carbs unless its cooked it said. So I guess I’ll take that!!!
I really appreciate all the kind words and everything that everyone that is following or reading this blog has said so far! It makes me feel good! Now It's my job to keep up the blogging, dieting, and exercising! I CAN DO THIS! (can't I)
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